She liked to party
That was the glaring truth of it
Wished she regretted it,
Hated herself for it
Tried to change it
But she didn’t
She liked the freedom of it
The randomness of it
The unexpected turns of a good night
The anticipation right before it
And it never wore off
She didn’t play dress up
Or select places through a filter
Newness, elite crowd, particular table always waiting
Picture perfect shots with beautiful lit backgrounds
The right kind of men begging to take care of bills
She wanted open spaces and familiar faces
Friendly waiters and waitresses
First name basis
“The usual?” Yes, please Mark, you know it
“Who’s playing the music? Can I listen to that song whose title I can’t remember?”
Laughter, loud laughter
Food, quick tasty food
Silly washed out jokes told in a new context
Terrible dance moves in the wee hours
Mornings of hilarious recollections